"Whatever"

I didn't post on Tuesday but I did weigh in and I lost .5 pound. So while I'm down from my gain I am still higher than I was 2 weeks ago. And with that I breath a heavy sigh and say whatever. Why? Because I have yet another cold. This is my third one in a little more than a month. So my journey to be fit has pointed out to me that I am not healthy. There is no way a healthy person gets this many colds. Now I know that I need to improve my nutrition and come January I will be seeing a nutritionist. I also know my life is not typical and I have a lot of stress and responsibility and sometimes that causes me to burn the candle at both ends. All of these are ways to compromise my immune system. My goal for the next 3 weeks of this are get through Christmas (which means I do need to actually shop & wrap still), exercise when I can and be mindful of what I eat.
Come January my one year plan which will still have 8 months left will be kicking into higher gear. I will take better care of me. I have no choice.

Respect

This week has been a long one. There has been some stress and I know next week is going to be even longer. During these stressful times I have not been kind to myself. I know the basics, respect food respect myself. Sometimes its easier to throw that away and give up. I'm still working on why its okay to be unkind to myself and disrespect myself. I am working on why that it is easier for me to give up.
I am sure I will see another gain tomorrow. I however am going to go back to basics and be kind to myself.