Today is the 8 week mark from my first weigh in. I have lost another 1/2 pound this week which brings my 2 month total to 9 pounds! I am very excited by this. Ideally I would like to lose another 9 to 12. That means I am about halfway to my goal. I am keenly aware that Halloween is the start of the holiday season. For me its the munching season. The next 2 months will prove to be a test in my skills. I think I am ready.
Starting this project was not just about the number. It is about my health, my relationship with food, and my determination to take care of me. As wives and mothers we tend to forget about us. Even though I am pleased with my current weight loss and the prospect of being almost halfway to an ideal number I am also pleased with all of the other things I have accomplished.
I am so much more aware of what I am eating. I think the little changes have helped in bigger ways. I no longer put sugar in my coffee. I sprinkle some cinnamon on and I don't even miss the sugar. I have noticed when I do have something like a piece of candy corn the sugar taste seems so strong.
I am still considering working with a nutritionist. I have found that there is a lot of conflicting information on food and calories needed for weight loss and athletic training. While the race I'm currently training for is only 5 miles I do plan on training for a half marathon in the spring. I want to make sure I am eating the optimal foods for fuel.
2 months down 10 to go...where will I be then? I think in a much better place than I was 9/10.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Buttons
Time for some candor, one of the things that drove me to reexamine my weight and food issues were buttons. Nope, not pants buttons shirt buttons. Over the years I have gained a lot in my chest. Its not a place I enjoy having a lot of extra weight. It hurts your back, it makes it difficult to run and it becomes very difficult to wear button down shirts. I was considering a reduction and began doing research. One of the requirements for the surgery is you have to be within a healthy weight range. I decided that I would try to lose the weight and see if I could lose some from my chest. If not then I could look into a breast reduction. Well I wore a button down shirt day! I think I will stop thinking about surgery and get measured for some new garments, I have a feeling I may have changed in size. Perhaps a little TMI, but its where my head is at today.
One more food for thought....Wynonna Judd was on with Rosie the other day here i s a lesson she had to learn in her journey which is more difficult "the pain of changing or the pain of NOT changing". I really understood that. I'm willing to make the change today.
One more food for thought....Wynonna Judd was on with Rosie the other day here i s a lesson she had to learn in her journey which is more difficult "the pain of changing or the pain of NOT changing". I really understood that. I'm willing to make the change today.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Happy Tuesday
Happy Tuesday! It is indeed. I was able to take off the weight I had put back on last week along with another 2.5 lbs. I am now at what is considered normal on a BMI calculator. I am still too close to the overweight cutoff for comfort but I am getting there.
I really focused on feeding for fuel and not addiction this week. I looked at my proteins, carbs, fiber and sugar intake closely.
I know I am no where near cured of my food issues, but I feel I made a lot of progress last week. Without too much detail my local CF community lost a young adult. His mom was one of the first "CF" moms I knew (back before there were blogs or facebook) who helped show me how to be an advocate for my child. As I was diving in to some lovely homemade apple pie I told myself that it didn't solve anything. I allowed myself to cry and cry I did. I felt the pain and emotion instead of numbing it.
One of the reasons I started running a few years ago was because I knew I was blessed with healthy lungs. My daughter was not. I often forget that there are other parts of me that need to be just as healthy.
So this week I learned that if I respect food it will respect me.
I really focused on feeding for fuel and not addiction this week. I looked at my proteins, carbs, fiber and sugar intake closely.
I know I am no where near cured of my food issues, but I feel I made a lot of progress last week. Without too much detail my local CF community lost a young adult. His mom was one of the first "CF" moms I knew (back before there were blogs or facebook) who helped show me how to be an advocate for my child. As I was diving in to some lovely homemade apple pie I told myself that it didn't solve anything. I allowed myself to cry and cry I did. I felt the pain and emotion instead of numbing it.
One of the reasons I started running a few years ago was because I knew I was blessed with healthy lungs. My daughter was not. I often forget that there are other parts of me that need to be just as healthy.
So this week I learned that if I respect food it will respect me.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Tuesday Weigh In...slide
I gained 1.5 this week. I knew it was going to happen and I know why it happened. I don't say this as a way to make excuses. I am sharing this because I need to learn from my mistakes.
Firstly, I have said before and I will say it again I am an emotional eater whose main addiction is sugar. I have done a pretty good job so far keeping that in check. But, I lost my focus for a few reasons this week and I lied to myself saying its just one. Just one Mallomars does not exist in my world. I had a very stressful week and my focus was elsewhere. Long story short a few years back I had a quick run in with melanoma and fortunately it was dealt with early on. I just have one big, ugly scar to show for it. Well last week I had a suspicious mole removed. That's all it took for me; I was off balance. I have to get stronger at focus. I know that. Fortunately the mole turned out to be fine but, my Mallomars addiction not so fine.
The other issue was socializing. A few weeks back I did really well while out and about. Unfortunately this weekend two different scenarios occurred. The first was no healthy choices whatsoever at the one function I was at. I was at a loss. All the dishes were appetizer types: fried, cheese or cream laden foods. I tried to nibble in moderation. I'm not really sure what happened. The second event was a last minute change in plans to get together with friends. Again I was not planning for it calorie wise and hoped I could have some salad. I was told there would be salad, there was no salad. I know I have to get better on my nibbling skills.
I also have to get better at being honest with myself. Mallomars are not hugs, or cuddly pillows they are processed foods with no redeeming qualities. They are a gateway drug for me. It became alright to have my friends homemade chocolate chip cookies because "what is just one?" Well for me there is no such thing as just one.
I have regained my spirit and my commitment to me and I will be pushing myself hard this week to make up for it. I know I can!
Firstly, I have said before and I will say it again I am an emotional eater whose main addiction is sugar. I have done a pretty good job so far keeping that in check. But, I lost my focus for a few reasons this week and I lied to myself saying its just one. Just one Mallomars does not exist in my world. I had a very stressful week and my focus was elsewhere. Long story short a few years back I had a quick run in with melanoma and fortunately it was dealt with early on. I just have one big, ugly scar to show for it. Well last week I had a suspicious mole removed. That's all it took for me; I was off balance. I have to get stronger at focus. I know that. Fortunately the mole turned out to be fine but, my Mallomars addiction not so fine.
The other issue was socializing. A few weeks back I did really well while out and about. Unfortunately this weekend two different scenarios occurred. The first was no healthy choices whatsoever at the one function I was at. I was at a loss. All the dishes were appetizer types: fried, cheese or cream laden foods. I tried to nibble in moderation. I'm not really sure what happened. The second event was a last minute change in plans to get together with friends. Again I was not planning for it calorie wise and hoped I could have some salad. I was told there would be salad, there was no salad. I know I have to get better on my nibbling skills.
I also have to get better at being honest with myself. Mallomars are not hugs, or cuddly pillows they are processed foods with no redeeming qualities. They are a gateway drug for me. It became alright to have my friends homemade chocolate chip cookies because "what is just one?" Well for me there is no such thing as just one.
I have regained my spirit and my commitment to me and I will be pushing myself hard this week to make up for it. I know I can!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Comfortable pants
It's Tuesday again and I've lost another pound! I was even more pleased this morning to be able to fit into pants that were a tad too snug last year. And by too snug I mean the buttons were about to pop, the zipper wouldn't go all the way up and I would be uncomfortable all day. I am not dreading dressing for fall and winter so much now. I hated the way my clothes would make me feel. I was too depressed to buy new things as it would be an admission that I had failed. I will continue to celebrate these mini steps by buttoning my pants comfortably.
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