I gained 1.5 this week. I knew it was going to happen and I know why it happened. I don't say this as a way to make excuses. I am sharing this because I need to learn from my mistakes.
Firstly, I have said before and I will say it again I am an emotional eater whose main addiction is sugar. I have done a pretty good job so far keeping that in check. But, I lost my focus for a few reasons this week and I lied to myself saying its just one. Just one Mallomars does not exist in my world. I had a very stressful week and my focus was elsewhere. Long story short a few years back I had a quick run in with melanoma and fortunately it was dealt with early on. I just have one big, ugly scar to show for it. Well last week I had a suspicious mole removed. That's all it took for me; I was off balance. I have to get stronger at focus. I know that. Fortunately the mole turned out to be fine but, my Mallomars addiction not so fine.
The other issue was socializing. A few weeks back I did really well while out and about. Unfortunately this weekend two different scenarios occurred. The first was no healthy choices whatsoever at the one function I was at. I was at a loss. All the dishes were appetizer types: fried, cheese or cream laden foods. I tried to nibble in moderation. I'm not really sure what happened. The second event was a last minute change in plans to get together with friends. Again I was not planning for it calorie wise and hoped I could have some salad. I was told there would be salad, there was no salad. I know I have to get better on my nibbling skills.
I also have to get better at being honest with myself. Mallomars are not hugs, or cuddly pillows they are processed foods with no redeeming qualities. They are a gateway drug for me. It became alright to have my friends homemade chocolate chip cookies because "what is just one?" Well for me there is no such thing as just one.
I have regained my spirit and my commitment to me and I will be pushing myself hard this week to make up for it. I know I can!
I'm getting a bit weepy reading your post today because I can relate to it so, so much. I'm really glad we're here sharing with each other. Hang in there, Trish. I'm with you. I am.
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm glad your latest medical adventure had good results. Whew. Scary stuff, huh?
P.S. Triple LOVED your line "Mallomars are not hugs, or cuddly pillows they are processed foods with no redeeming qualities."